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Estinien Wyrmblood ([personal profile] stardiving) wrote2020-01-31 01:30 pm
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IC Inbox (Victory Road)



"You've reached a mailbox that has not been set up yet. Please hang up and try your call again later!"

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fingersandteeth: (looking over)

[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-21 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
... no. I get it. Back home, my friend Abner was born Jessica. I'm basically deadnaming him now and so is Hythlodaeus. It's a huge dick move on our parts. And it's understandable he's pissed off.

I just think how he's acting on being pissed is way beyond the pale.

(And, admittedly, it sticks in my craw to call him by the name of the poor asshole whose life he stole.)
fingersandteeth: (realization)

[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-22 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I *know*. It's just. I don't know. The principle of the thing.

(Admittedly, being still on unpaid leave at work after two and a half weeks because *someone* has sent a Rotom to sabotage all the office equipment I dare try to use is. Well. Destroying a lot of what charity I *had* for 'Solus' right now. I mean, I know I earned it, but at the same time, I *really miss my job*.)
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-23 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
I sent him a nightmare during the weird weekend. In return for all the times he terrified me and for bothering Tyler after I told him to stay away from him. And... god, I don't remember half the details anymore but I know it was absolutely horrific and got completely away from me. I think his mind must have filled things in on its own after I started it... my God, the shit that was in his head.

Anyway. I was ready to apologize and talk things out with him... and then he started sabotaging my ability to do my *job*.
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-23 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
I know, I know. I've been a complete and utter dumbass with him. I get it.

He's still an unbearable ass, though.
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-23 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Perhaps I should be.

That said, I *did* apologize to him in the middle of my intoxicated fit of melancholy on my dead sister's birthday, *meant* it, and he didn't call off his damn rotom. Even though if he had then I'd have no idea that my computer troubles were him. So no. He won't accept it. I'm completely screwed when it comes to him.




... also, even at your worse, did you ever think that mortals were less than people? Because that's the thing I hate most about him. that he doesn't even think I'm a *person*. He's never actually said it *outright* but you can tell when a guy doesn't think you're people if it's happened to you enough and it's *definitely* happened to me enough. I'm not his goddamn gardener!
Edited 2020-07-23 16:17 (UTC)
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-23 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I'd ask Hythlodaeus to play referee, except, well, *they're* not talking either. Maybe Tyler, though. Or hell, even Dirk. Even if the two of them are fucking. Tyler and Dirk together, maybe. Dirk would be slightly biased towards 'Solus' and Tyler towards me, so it would even out.

The thing is, though, that no matter how immortal he was before, 'Solus' is just as mortal now as any of us and I don't think he *gets* that. And even if he wasn't... look. The one thing my parents made absolute sure to impress upon me as a kid is that everyone is a person, even if I don't care about them. Even if I hate them. I don't *have* to care about anyone, even if they'd prefer I would, but I do have to accept they're all people.

And I'm not a good person! At all! I don't know if I'm better or worse than you used to be, but deep down I'm an asshole too! But with 'Solus' it's like only the people he cares about are people! And I get the temptation to go with that logic! I do! But if even I'm capable of understand other people are people too, then why isn't *he*?
Edited 2020-07-23 22:09 (UTC)
fingersandteeth: (shock)

[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-24 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
Jesus Christ.

[He guesses that explains Hades and Dirk, though.]

Okay. I get how he thinks that doesn't mean we--you--are people.

But he's still goddamn *wrong*.

Also I have no clue who else to act as referee for us, except maybe you. I trust you to be impartial.
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-25 08:02 pm (UTC)(link)
He estimated my age at fifty, more or less. I decided thirteen years wasn't worth arguing over. (Twelve, really. I'm not going to do the math for the exact day, but if I were home, I'd have had my birthday already.)

Anyway. Look. If I ever get to the point where I want to hammer out a truce with 'Solus' I'll call on you as referee. Right now, I don't feel like it's worth it, since I don't trust him to act in good faith and he's still sabotaging me at work. But maybe eventually.
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-25 08:29 pm (UTC)(link)
You're the only one I can think to ask who isn't going to be biased due to best friend status or having fucked one of us at some point. Or both those things in terms of Hythlo.

Also yuck. They'd be *stale* by then.
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-25 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
In my own defense, literally 100% of the relationship drama here is on 'Solus' and his almost certain emotional infidelity.
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-25 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I mean, maybe. But when it ends up with one of my own friends stranded on a beach I can't ignore it *completely*.
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[personal profile] fingersandteeth 2020-07-26 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
"Holy shit."

and

"Please tell me this was before you were friends."

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